* I love Summer *

Saturday, April 01, 2006

I Shldn't Be Here Now..

if i'm not wrong, i shld be on a date with summer now.. but.. though i knoe my true reasons, i decided to lie to everyone, telling them i'm alrite and smiling as usual.. i regretted.. but too late..

i jus wanna tell everyone that if you guys ever realli have a tough decision to make, pls make sure that u consider carefully.. dun make bcos of a rash decision, thus regretting it later.. every decision that we make, carries a consequence that we do not knoe.. and till you regret and want things back, it's too late..

i realised i've been tearing nites after nites on my bed.. i think of myself as a foolish guy who wants the best for her, in the end, hurting her.. when i left her to cry alone that afternoon, i knoe i deserve to die..

i wrote out my truthful feelings abt some things in a secret blog, cos i can't find anyone to talk to.. guys can get realli lonely in camp.. so our thinkings go astray.. i knoe summer has totally given up on me, and wont come here again.. her voice was cold.. and i will neva forget her words..

"i dun feel for you now.."

"i'm sorry but i dun love you anymore.."

those words killed me just like how i killed her with mine.. i like blogging, cos i can live in a world of my own, where readers are mysterious and writers too.. a place where people can choose to continue reading, or just exit from the top right hand corner of their windows..

rite now, i got no one but my own world to live in.. a place which i chose and regretted..

but it's too late..

my own world from now..

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SummerLove winks
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