* I love Summer *

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Alone or Lonely??

sitting in front my work desk and typing.. was informed last wk that i gotta work today which is the 3rd day of lunar new year and also a public holiday.. i remember a quote which i read long ago..

"being alone means being alone, and
being loney means unhappy being alone.."

so which am i now??

as i was walking in from the entrance, there was not even a single soul around the company.. the night shift personnel wont be coming in so early.. but slightly after ten pm.. so why am i back on this fateful day?? it's bcos there was some maintenance done in the company, and i'm supposed to test for the cleanliness of some of the areas where production will be running..

i'm working in a QA (quality assurance) microbiology lab.. thus this is part of my job scope to ensure that every product that the company produced is 100% safe for the public to use.. now munching onto my cold mcspicy double, just feel so poor thing.. even the fries tasted like uncooked potatoes.. to reward myself for my willingness to work hard this new yr, i bought mcnuggets as well.. not that i'm hardworking but i just like eating chicken..

not wanting to msg my dearest cos she's trying hard to play mahjong and dun wanna disturb her.. i knoe when she's reading this, she'll call me a "silly boy"..

it's just another mere 29 days.. i'll be going in to the army on march 9th which from then, may be a turning point my life.. my thinking, mindset, character, attitude will all be differnet from now.. i guess this is what i call - maturation?? will she wait for me?? will i turn into gay in camp?? no one knoes.. i guess for this, only heaven knoes..

i realli miss the girl alot.. we haven been spending much time together and as time begins accelerating at an astounding pace, i realli hope to treasure the time with her.. and i hope she's thinking the same way as i do.. i guess that's all.. for now, i'm back to listening my blog music and try my best to enjoy my cold cold macdonalds..

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SummerLove winks
at |5:51 PM|

Saturday, January 28, 2006

'N Sync - This I Promise Y ou

When visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes,
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Is standing here all alone...

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart (give you my heart)
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
Ooh..
I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
Ooh..
I promise you..

Every word I say is true,
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you...

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SummerLove winks
at |12:09 PM|

tmr will be the cheena new year.. so far with summer, i've been thru...
(-) deepavali 2005,
(-) hari raya puasa,
(-) xmas 2005,
(-) new yr 2006, and
(-) hari raya haji 2006..

from today onwards, it'll be a brand new year for all of us.. we, as the chee-na.. or i mean chinese.. are the happiest lots of ppl today and for the next few days.. we get to sit around and eat steamboat.. with lots of seafood..!!

and for summer and i, we are also older by a year after tonite.. and after tonite, we'll all grow into young adults.. i've also thot thru things last nite.. and felt that i haven been listening enough to her probs.. i suddenly wondered, when was the last time i heard that she's unhappy with me.. and i realised she has never been unhappy with me before..

i guess, i've made the rite choice in placing her as the first lady in my life, on par with my mum.. i've also thot of the best way to love this princess and give her the best of everything that i can ever can.. i've tried loving her in my way, and failed.. tried loving her in her way, also failed.. from today onwards, i'll try loving her in my way and her way.. u guys may not understand, but i knoe the princess does..

i felt very guilty just now.. i told her once that whatever happened, it's all in the past now.. but yet, i kept mentioning the past last nite.. i'm just so bad.. when she quarrelled with me, she NEVER mentioned abt the past how i used to throw my temper at her, flared at her or how i scolded her.. she just kept quiet and listened to whatever i gotta say..

but anyway i believe, tmr onwards, as we welcome the bow-wow year, summer and i will live in a land of peace, love, hope and dreams.. so rite here, i wanna walk thru the new year and the future years with summer and i just wanna say..

back in our garden, i received a surprise.. very nice one.. thank you, honey.. now listening to the theme song in our garden, just brings back so many nice and fond memories of us..

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SummerLove winks
at |11:34 AM|

Friday, January 27, 2006

Work..

work work work.. so busy.. also dunno why i'm still writing a blog.. maybe just for the fun of it.. but i'm so busy and tired.. actually it's also a gd thing to be busy.. time pass faster this way..

the girl and i are back again, awaiting our 2nd mth in another 16 days.. the girl said that something seems wrong in our relationship again.. i guess what she meant was that i seem rather cold to her.. i'm not sure of the problem too..

anyway work seems to take up most of my time now, in the past, mayb i'll be wondering and thinking.. but i'm so stressed and tired at work.. wanted to post pics up.. but i'm just so lazy..

nth to write.. nothing interests me anymore.. i find myself changing again.. but this time, specially custom-made for the girl by the name of summer, my dear..

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SummerLove winks
at |6:04 AM|

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Quotes, Quotes, Quotes..

As I stared into your eyes, you asked me why I was about to cry, its because I knew you were going to say good-bye."
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"Oh, I shouldn't care or wonder where and how you are, but I can't hide this hurt inside my broken heart. I'm fighting back emotions that I've never fought before because I'm not supposed to love you anymore
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The worst feeling in the world is loving someone, when they don't love you back. Your heart aches every time you see him, knowing that no matter how deep you look into their eyes, trying to reach their heart, you never will,
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After I wake up from dreaming about you, I have the biggest smile on my face. Then it quickly fades away because I realize that it was just a dream and you're not really mine.

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SummerLove winks
at |6:05 AM|

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

ABC...

yest i was able to make her wish come true...

A
B
C
D
E
F
G
H

J
K
L
M
N
O
P
Q
R
S
T

i was able to change the alphabets.. i knew i could..

i was able to put "U" and "I" together..

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SummerLove winks
at |6:12 AM|

Wang Li Hong - Forever Love

爱你不是因为你的美而已
我越来越爱你每个眼神触动我的心
因为你让我看见 Forever
才了解自己
未来这些日子你要好好珍惜

爱我有些痛苦有些不公平
如果真的爱我不是理所当然的决定
感到你的呼吸在我耳边像微风神奇
温柔的安抚我的不安定

所以我~要每天研究你的笑容 Ooh 多么自然

Forever love Forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后你会是所有幸福的理由

爱情是场最美最远的旅行沿途雨季泥泞
偶尔阻碍我们的前进感到你的体温在我怀里
像阳光和煦巧妙的融化我的不安定不可思议
证明我爱你的理由 Ooh 多么自然

Forever love Forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后你会是所有幸福的理由

你感动的眼睛
我沉默的声音
仿佛就是最好的证明
就让我在说一次
I love you oh
直到永远

Forever love Forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后你会是所有幸福的理由

Forever Love Forever Love
Forever Love

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SummerLove winks
at |6:03 AM|

Monday, January 23, 2006

Retribution

in the end, everything still ended.. with hundreds of missed calls and countless of msgs, she still left me with just a few msgs..

"She was a dream. Time to wake up kel.. Let her go" and i did...

i've neva put in more effort than anything else than her.. i gave her all the love i can ever find, i thot of her whenever i could.. i did what probably no guys will ever do for their love.. but still, she wanna go.. and i allowed her..

each time she wanted to initiate a breakup, she'll missed my calls the whole day.. i couldn't even find her, i couldn't even get hold of her.. in the end, she always relented.. but what was coming was, every breakup and her tears, was like a rehersal, made her a stronger person last nite..

she left me guessing what went wrong, was it bcos of my harsh tone that she couldn't take it anymore?? or bcos there was no love.. but i guess it's all retribution.. i have always given her and painted the kind of future she always wanted.. i always gave in to her requests.. not to meet, snapped away my lines, etc.. even when she went off last nite, i was the one who sent her off..

perhaps she's rite.. everything was just a dream.. there was never a summer, and there was definitely never a nice kel.. and i believe it's time to wake up too.. since she's able to throw me aside just like that, it just shows what kind of a boyfriend i am.. and what kind of love i'm showering on..

for those ppl who have never seen us gd, u got ur words.. u guys shld be happy now.. but what u guys wont expect is a change in me.. there will not be a kelvin as well anymore.. i'm leaving.. i've only 2 names in my phone now.. and for the rest, i wont be bothered anymore.. i dun care abt how u guys feel anymore.. cos this is kel.. he doesn't give a god-damn shit to you guys at all..

and as for her..

i told her i'm gone.. i wont bother her again.. i knoe she'll be happy.. bcos her life was so bright even before i enter.. i will definitely not forget the 12th of every mth.. if this is she had planned for me, i believe it's the best too.. maybe i'm stupid, maybe it's the end of me..

i love her.. then, now and on.. if this isn't what she wanted in a relationship, i guess she'll never be happy with me.. from now on, i'll only get to look at her from afar.. but that's enough.. cos as long as she's happy, safe and sound, whatever position i hold in her heart, it doesn't matter anymore..

this time i shed no tears.. perhaps no more tears to shed.. i always believe she planned my life for me.. she's the one.. and i shld trust her.. mayb i'll start trusting her..

i wish you all the best, honey..

i'll not be back anymore..

翻着我们的照片
想念若隐若现
去年的冬天
我们笑得很甜

看着你哭泣的脸
对着我说再见
来不及听见
你已走得很远

也许你已经放弃我
也许已经很难回头
我知道是自己错过
请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我

就算是我不懂
能不能原谅我
请不要把分手
当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走
是你受伤的藉口
请你回头
我会陪你一直走到最后

就算没有结果
我也能够承受
我知道你的痛
是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容
如果要走
请你记得我

如果难过
请你忘了我

bye everyone..

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SummerLove winks
at |5:52 AM|

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Plus One - Here In My Heart

Wherever you are tonight, girl
I'll see you in my dreams
Wherever I go tomorrow
You'll be here next to me

And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far
'Cause...

Here in my heart, there's a picture of us
Together forever, unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are, your love covers me
Forevermore, you'll be here in my heart

Whenever I miss, miss you so much
It's more than I can bear
No, I won't cry, I'll just close my eyes
And know you'll be there

Your kiss and your touch I'll never forget'
Cause you're as close as my very next breath

Here in my heart, there's a picture of us
Together forever, unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are, your love covers me
Forevermore, you'll be here in my heart

And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far
'Cause...

Here in my heart, there's a picture of us
Together forever, unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are, your love covers me
Forevermore, you'll be here in my heart

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SummerLove winks
at |10:59 AM|

Respect

i realised some things last nite while before i slept.. just earlier on, my girlfriend snapped off the phone 3 times.. i always hated it when ppl does that to me, and of course, i still hate it.. alot.. no one in my entire life dares to do a thing like that.. maybe it's not dares or not, but perhaps it's just a respect we show one another as a friend..

but what i realised was.. if it doesn't happens, doesn't mean it will not happen at all.. i have never, in my life, snapped off ppl's calls and i always hope that no one does that to me.. because i realli find it irritating, when the opp party doesn't want to clear the air with you, but rather leave things unsettled till next morning..

sometimes guys can only have themselves to blame when the girl snapped on them.. how come other girlfriends dun do that to their boyfriends?? there sure must be something wrong, if not, she'll not treat you like that.. i took ten mins and thot abt it.. perhaps i was wrong..

what she did, was a wake-up call to me.. if i have neva treated anyone with respect, this is what is going to happen to me.. and by then, not only she'll snapped me off, other friends will too.. i believe there are many ways we can look at things.. in the past, i'll always get mad with her.. for cutting off the line halfway thru the conversation.. perhaps i'm gonna be 21 this yr, certain things, i can't possibly look at them always at the worst state..

looking at things on the brighter side certainly helps to calm tense atmosphere down to the lowest.. she snapping off the line, also made me realised how impt she is to me and how worried i'll get.. bcos i dun get worried, then do i still love her as much as before??

other than that, i also realised that, it doesn't mean that if she's your girlfriend/boyfriend, she must always be smiling, treating you like a king to soothe your ego.. it's better she treats you the worst than others treating you the worst.. of course, i'm not saying this so that my girl can go around snapping my line, there's a line to everything..

i believe as a new age guy, we shld be more open-minded to listen to what girls are realli thinking abt.. no point telling your buddies that you dun understand what they're thinking.. bcos ultimately she's gonna be ur wife, so if you dun even knoe what she's thinking, aren't you at the same level as other guys going after her??

it takes alot of effort and patience in nurturing the best relationship out of all.. it doesn't help if only one party is doing.. and of course, there's nothing such as who's putting more effort and who's being appreciated more.. different people love differently.. it's just how you want to be loved.. for my girl, perhaps her way of loving is giving each other space to do whatever we like, but still getting control in relationship..

she knoes i dun like sticky things, she tends not to stick so close.. she understands me much more than some friends i supposed.. rite now, i think things are getting on fine with us other than some arguements which leads to snapping off lines.. some friends said we shldn't let the girl have her way too much, she'll be pampered and becomes a spoilt brat.. some also said, giving way to them is actually a sign of respect too.. becos you respect the person, you give her whatever she wants..

for whatever he says or she says, it all make sense..

but what i say... i love her alot, and in my form of love, i accept her for who is she and what she is.. even if one day she becomes the most bad tempered lady, i'll still stand by her.. if as her boyfriend, you can't even stand by her and accept her for who she is, she's probably not the one for you..

my girl has accepted me for who i am, what i am, who i used to be and who i'm going to be.. i think i shld return back the faith she had in me, by loving her more each day..

"i dun think it's a time to blame but a time to reflect.. isit that we're too naive or isit that we cannot accept failures? isit due to our ego which believe that everything must be so perfect that we neglect other's convenience by assuming that they're thinking the same way as we do??"

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SummerLove winks
at |10:19 AM|

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Barney - I Love You

i love you
you love me
we're a happy family with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you
wont you say you love me too!

i love you
you love me we're best friends as friends should be
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you
wont you say you love me too!

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SummerLove winks
at |11:34 AM|

Friday, January 20, 2006

I'm A Happy Guy

if the day before was bad, yest was alrite in the beginning but absolutely a dream towards the end.. she knoes just when i'm tired and realli unmotivated.. the gift came in at the perfect time.. just when i put my bag down, i was going to say my routine line, "i'm so tired..." as usual, apparently..

but seeing her gift, i was left speechless, dumbfounded, rooted to the ground, smile brightening.. and suddenly all my fatigue seemed to have disappeared into thin air.. i'll post pics of it tonite.. but anyway......

Happy, shalalala...
It's so nice to be happy, shalalala...

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If there's a choice between 2 ppl - choice of gd friend and risking your girlfriend or choice of gf and risk your gd friend?

i made a choice and felt it was rite.. so...

i just hope i meet more understanding friends and as understanding as aaron..

will write more tonite..

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SummerLove winks
at |6:07 AM|

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Feeling Weird

i'm not quite sure how am i feeling now.. i was thinking why did you tell me that last nite.. i thought you will be worried with me but.. hmm.. just not quite sure.. i dunno how to describe the exact feeling, hearing it out from you..

last nite conversation with the girl was a good one.. heart-to-heart chats like this, always leave us leaving closer as the time goes by.. if yest was a bad day, i certainly hope today will be a good one..

i din knoe your worries will be whether you can fit into my family style.. my family is just not so close.. that's all.. your worries came as a sudden and as a shock to me.. but perhaps now is not the time to worry abt this.. no worries.. i'm not mad or anything.. hope you're not too..

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SummerLove winks
at |6:07 AM|

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

If Tomorrow Never Comes

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams so I turn off the light, let her in the dark.

And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake in the morning
Would she ever doubt, the way I feel about her in my heart.

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her?
Did I try in every way, to show her every day, that she's my only one
And if my time on earth would through, she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past, gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost love ones in my live
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with all regret and my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself, to say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance were there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her?
Did I try in every way, to show her every day, that she's my only one
And if my time on earth would through, she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past, gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

To tell that someone that you love, just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes.

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heard this song on the bus today cos of my mp3 player is not working.. I have come to realize many things since I started blogging.. You get to meet people you never would have met any other way.. You get to know these people not by their looks or by their touch, but by their heart and soul.

then i received a msg from the girl - " lao gong, zao an"

i recently knoe how to change the settings so that when summer calls in, the ringtone will be different from the rest of the ppl.. yea.. after holding the phone for abt a yr..

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take a look at the lyrics in bold, i just like this kind of songs with catchy tunes and a realli pleasant lyrics.. if tomorrow never comes, will i be happy?? - yes.. cos i've already knew my girl is safe and sound..

i believe i've always tell her how i felt abt her.. becos i believe there not be a tomorrow.. but at least i've done all i can for her.. as the days count down, i felt time is beginning to pick up speed.. what seems to be a distance away, seems so close now..

will she remember that day?? how will i spend the day?? i'm realli not sure.. somehow i realli wish time will pick up AND slow down.. i hope time will quickly pass when i'm at work so i can rushed home to hear from summer.. perhaps she neva knew how i alway feel when i dun get to hear from her..

is she alrite? is she caught in the rain? what can she be doing?

is this a sign of possessive-ness? now that your work is beginning, i guess our time will be cut short by so much.. yest was 2 calls with 10 msgs.. will today be just a call and 5 msgs? will we just be exchanging a msg a day in future?

i realli hope we can treasure whatever little bit of time we have.. mayb it's very hard to take up 1 hr to call me.. but 2mins is enough.. mayb it's hard to take 5 msgs to send to me, but 1 msg is enough.. as we count down till that day, will you be ready then?

i think it's realli bad to keep leaving missed calls in your phone, cos i knoe u'll feel bad.. but it's okie.. i'll be bringing work home to do, so as to minimize the number of times i'm going to call you.. i guess our blogs will be our main form of communication during this period of time..

now i hope time can stop now.. let the tired girl have her rest, dreaming in my book, listening to my voice, while i.......................

while i think of her, and write out how much i miss her...

i guess i was realli wrong to scare you by bringing those stuffs.. i'm sorry..

though i made alot of calls yest, but hearing your voice in that short 3 secs, i guess it just tells me how much i love you and how tired you are.. dun worry, ya?? concentrate on your work, pay attention.. i wont disturb you..

just take care of yourself when you're outside working.. and other than that,

i love you, honey..

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SummerLove winks
at |6:52 PM|

If Only..

if only i can feel your summer smile, knowing what i've done is not
(-) wrong,
(-) silly,
(-) idiotic,

perhaps..

it was wrong of me..

to be a smart aleck and assumed..

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SummerLove winks
at |6:06 AM|

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Because I Love You

[p/s: the music loads very slowly, my com took abt 2 mins plus to load]
my girl likes this song..

If I got down on my knees and I pleaded with you,
If I crossed a million oceans just to be with you,
Would you ever let me down?

If I climbed the highest mountain just to hold you tight,
If I said that I would love you every single night,
Would you ever let me down?

Well, I'm sorry if it sounds kinda sad, it's just that
I'm worried, so worried that you'll let me down.
Because I love you, love you, love you, so don't let me down.

If I swam the longest river just to call your name,
If I said the way I feel for you would never change,
Would you ever fool around?

Well, I'm sorry if it sounds kinds bad, it's just that
I'm worried, I'm so worried that you'll let me down.
Because I love you, love you.

Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinds bad, it's just that
I'm worried, Yes, I'm so worried that you'll let me down.
Because I love you, love you, Oooh, I love you, love you, love you.

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here's where i go today.. retail therapy not only help girls.. guys benefit too..

this is what i wore out. i wear my watch on the left hand.. but i took the pic from the mirror..

treated my mum and sisters to thai express.. then went walk walk at junction 8.. paid for a shirt and skirt for my younger sis.. then walked on.. younger sis bought a levis.. her first levis and paid by my mum..

then forgot where we walked on.. din pay attention.. then treated them to ya kun kaya toast.. today walked thru so many things that made me thot of summer.. even ya kun.. bought 2 boxers for myself.. and something little for summer for our 1st mth anniversary.. here are the pics..

my new working shirt = summer's pyjamas..

ya kun

1st mth anniversary gift for summer

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SummerLove winks
at |11:21 PM|

Friday, January 13, 2006

Friday the 13th..

i knoe alot of ppl will be using this as a topic but i'm still gonna use it nevertheless.. i'm tired and sick of everything.. today is such a good day for me, i wish i'll just have it once and never again.. many things to talk abt.. but i'm lazy.. just some things to vent out.. nth gd happened the whole day.. the only consolation - today is friday.. 2 rest days next..

work.

work.

work.

promised not to touch politics but all so rite to be screwed in it.. even if you leave that person alone, doesn't mean he/she will leave you back alone.. my work just piles up more and more and you knowingly still pile more for me.. so much for the "efficient kelvin" tag but i dun give a damn..

work used to be so enjoyable, cheerful and light.. sometimes i could just feel time zooming like a mad driver.. but why now the long, stale, busy, tiring (noticed all the bad adj start coming up) hrs? i used to walk with a hop but now, i dragged my feet and today i dragged them till my new sneakers cut into the heel of my feet.. bled a little, but i dun care..

on the way to work, things went bad.. no mood for breakfast, did "something", then zoomed straight to work.. sometimes work realli takes ur mind off many things.. but only temporary.. cos when you stopped to take a break, ur mind starts wondering again.. colleagues saw my black face.. kept quiet.. so many ppl working in an area, however it was as if ghosts were working instead.. till...

someone broke the damn glass which made me jump.. that was all it needed to start a loud morning.. i blasted the person as if there was no tomorrow.. i took another 2 more glasses and smashed on the floor.. i had enough of everything.. i walked out of the room and went into the chemical room.. exposed 15 mins of fumes bcos of another guy who left his brains back in my office.. blasted him off again..

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a taste of my own medicine.. not a very nice one.. but i realised how it feels when i treated them this way.. today i had it and though i wasn't too happy about it, i kept mum.. enough said. period.
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Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Mm mm mm mm mm mm mm.

only the 2 paragraphs are applicable to what i wanna say.. i'm troubled recently.. by alot of things.. alot.. i jus wanna take a break from everything.. in the past i was too insistent on things.. i was too stubborn.. rite now, perhaps working life has matured me alot.. it's not what i want to be, but what i was turned into..

i used to be carefree.. rite now, it's so tight in my chest that i have difficulty breathing.. my girl is rite.. she's not the only one reading.. alot of ppl are reading.. i can't write out what i truly feel.. i'm trapped.. i need to release myself..

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5 qns the ppl in the company have better stop asking.. i've been in the company for 10mths and these qns came coming.. you guys knoe my temper realli well, so stop asking..

(-) are you free on valentine's day? - no
(-) can we have dinner (date) - no
(-) where are you going on valentine's day?
(-) do you think it's possible between us? - no
(-) why?

if not for my girl reading, i think vulgarities would have filled this page.. so you got my girl to thank for sparing you..

i'm super low now..

is there anyone who will truly be here for me?

to tell me "it's been hard on you" rather than me telling them??

is there a friend out there?

listening to this song as i stared at the ceilings with my lights on to see if there's any cracks there..

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SummerLove winks
at |8:11 PM|

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Porridge, Anyone??

hmm, interesting isn't it? i somehow link relationship to porridge.. i dun mean plain but those chicken porridge, fish, etc.. let me use chicken porridge since i just love it so much..

to me, chicken porridge is simple to prepare, light and nutritious.. just like love.. all we need is a simple logic - you love me and i love you, it does make you go light-headed and it's definitely nutritious.. and although so much abt the simple-ness of the porridge, there are alot of factors to make the porridge a nice one..

although i like chicken porridge is simple, i like to add spring onion, fried onion, pepper, light soy sauce, chilli, sesame oil, fried onion oil, and an egg to go along.. and it's just like love, we need to add alot of stuffs into the simple relationship to make it all so magical and lovely..

and of course, what i'm trying to say is that to make a relationship works, there are alot of factors which play crucial roles in making it a fruitful love blossoms.. and for me personally, i'll neva take a second helping, no matter how nice the porridge or smooth it is..

the reason is simple, i'll neva make another bowl of porridge as nice as what i had in the first helping.. i'll neva be able to get the same sweetness, oily-ness, saltiness and taste of the porridge.. i dunno why.. it's just impossible..

it applies in love for me too.. i'm not able to put in the same factors which i've done in the previous relationship.. and whatever that happens in this relationship will purely be my first helping.. which means all romantic ideas will definitely be original..

i like thinking of romantic ideas to surprise the girl.. her beliefs for me and her support is truly crucial, as proven quite a number of times.. her words of encouragement seems better than any bonus my boss could have given me.. back to the porridge issue, ultimately, i'll finish up the first helping and i'll neva take the next one..

although i may ate lots of porridges in my life, i do make mistakes as well.. sometimes it gets so salty, i'll just dump the whole bowl away.. and try again.. rite now, i'm realli happy with my bowl of summer sunshine porridge and i've just started enjoying the porridge after adding quite abit of side ingredients..

i'm sure summer enjoys the porridge as well as i do and we'll add in more side ingredients if there's a need but not to over-add as well.. anyway in less than an hr, we'll be celebrating our first month anniversary together.. it's been long since i last get to celebrate this occasion.. looking forward to it tmr..

exchanging "i love yous", telling each other how much we appreciate each other's presence and hugging each other to bed.. esp now it has been raining hard these few days.. feels realli gd to be in each other's arms as we sleep thru the cold nites..

anyway, i love summer as much as i love my chicken porridge and ending with....

Happy First Month Anniversary,

honey.. and i love you, dear..

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SummerLove winks
at |11:14 PM|

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

this is just so familiar.. i remember vividly that she was feeling cheeky that day and i'm in office.. so before we put down the phone, i'll always tell her "l love you.."

then this silly gf of mine will always go like "huh.." and i'll say a little louder.. and everytime i say a little louder, i've unknowingly attracted lots of attention from other colleagues.. and after each phone call, they'll start laughing at me.. till i'm so shy.. hahaha...

hey honey, i jus wonder where did you find such a cute animation of both of us?? it realli evokes fond memories..

quoted from my honey's blog:

My silly bf is not feeling well and rest at home today.

"Dont worry.. did you think of me a little bit?"
"I miss you lah.. say until I so bad"
"I know lah.. Just miss a little bit is enough le"

Hehe.. He's so cute.

dun i just love to give my life to her...

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SummerLove winks
at |8:38 PM|

Who Is The Real Me?

i think there is definitely something wrong with me.. i think i'm turning possessive.. i think girls hate that alot.. i think even guys can't stand possessive girls.. well, i'm not one of them.. i prefer my girl to be possessive and i stick to her than vice versa..

sometimes i wonder, where is the line which separates concern from possessive-ness.. is possessive-ness a sign of commanding a person to yourself? telling the world that she cannot be touched at all? no possessive guy that i heard of, managed to hold a relationship well..

so.. the question is... am i a possessive guy or not??

possessive-ness in a guy starts from the first time she says "no lah.. nothing lah..", the guy sensed something was hiding from him and he went out to find out.. he became suspicious and wonder for the worst-case senarios.. i hate possessive guys.. i think they are depriving others of a chance of living the way they wanted..

but hearing from some ppl in my company, i agreed to a fact that lives will be different after 2 ppl became a couple but it doesn't mean we shld change our lives totally just to suit the lifestyle of the other.. here's a quote that my buddy sent me..

"i dun think it's a time to blame but a time to reflect..is it that we're too naive or is it that we cannot accept failures? is it due to our ego which believe that everything must be so perfect that we neglect other's convenience by assuming that they're thinking the same way as we do?"

when sometimes we met up with rough patches when living together, are we going to pint-point what we can't stand her, or shld we keep inside us to prevent conflicts.. i'm glad summer and i are very straight-forward ppl and we dun keep things within us.. we'll talk it out and have a discussion.. i dun believe there's anyone out there able to spoil anything between us..

what we went thru is not what most couples did and everytime the bond is strengthened, rather than weakened.. i feel myself loving her more each day.. and as what summer said before..

- last time you said "i love you" and i said "okie", you got so happy..
then as time goes by when you said "i love you", i must change to "i love you too"
then when you said "i love you", you must put a kiss inside..
then when you said "i love you" with a kiss, i must put a kiss inside too..
and now, when you said "i love you" with a kiss, i must put a kiss and somemore a big kiss -

i believe that as time goes by our expectations of each other grows.. but have i turned more possessive as time goes by?? is the above words in bold showing them out?

this morning, the silly girlfriend of mine asked me "你爱我吗?" well, of course i do.. here's something only for you, summer..

I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well.
I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and me tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but...
I miss you the most when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life.

你爱我吗 - 范逸臣
我的手握着方向盘
眼神停留在陌生的前方
周末夜晚拥挤的路上
我们能不能走到山顶上

你就坐在我的身旁
为什么心却生活在他方周
围夜色如此得迷乱
沉默中听见不安的试探

你爱我吗我可以这样问你吗
你爱我吗你给我的温柔是寂寞吗
你爱我吗你心里还有遗憾吗
你是真的爱我吗

城市里灯火正辉煌
我们的未来在什么地方
周末夜晚天空正闪亮
幸福是不是还握在手上

你就靠在我的肩膀
为什么心却沉没在远方
窗外天空依然还温暖
叹息中发现不只是不安

你爱我吗我可以这样问你吗
你爱我吗你给我的温柔是寂寞吗
你爱我吗你心里还有遗憾吗
你是真的快乐吗你爱我吗

你爱我吗你这样问过自已吗
你爱我吗你给我的拥抱是习惯吗
你爱我吗你的心里还是唯一吗
你爱我吗
你是真的爱我吗

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SummerLove winks
at |10:39 AM|

Monday, January 09, 2006

True - Ler Kelvin

It's hard to say hello
Because it might be good bye
It's hard to say I'm okay because I'm not
It's easy to say I miss you
Cos I know I really do

It's hard for two people
To love each other when they live in two different worlds
But when they collide and become one
That's what you call
You and I
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Chorus:
My biggest reward is to see you smile
Know you're happy
And feel you're loved

I know life is sometimes cruel
But that's why I am here
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Love is something special
A treasure I want to find
To others, love is blind

But for me it's not true
Cos when I fell in love
I saw you

I'll lend you my shoulder for you to cry on
My ears to listen to
My hand for you to hold
My feet to walk with you

But there is one thing that I know is true
That life will always be sad without you

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SummerLove winks
at |6:04 AM|

Sunday, January 08, 2006

My Boyfriend Is Type - B

i just watched the dvd of the show "my boyfriend is type - B".. it's a pretty interesting movie as the show talks abt how bad guys with blood group B are.. and after watching the movie, i went online to do a little research on blood type - B guys.. and here's the results..

(-) they are selfish, mercurial and absolutely useless as caring and devoted boyfriends.

(-) men are quick to get angry and quick to make up, but in the end, they will break your heart. (dun believe this, honey...)

(-) Bashing is too harsh a word to describe what is happening to blood type-B men. For women they are seen as bad boys, but they are also appealing because they are charming and attractive

(-) Type-O people were described as outgoing, expressive and passionate. Type-A were considered introverted perfectionists while type-AB were an unpredictable, distant lot.
And then there was type-B. They were considered independent spirits with strong personalities.

(-) According to a recent nationwide survey conducted by Internet, type-B men were considered to be the most difficult type to date and about 40 percent of women said they did not want to marry a type-B man.

(-) women tell flat out they don't date blood type B guys. They say the guys are selfish and hot-headed

(-) Type B, on the other hand, is sociable and creative. However, a type-B person has a low level of concentration, making his behavior seem erratic at times. An AB person is also kind and considerate but some people may find him overbearing. Always on the go, a type B is likely to be a flirt. (dun believe this too, honey...)

(-) such men attractive in their unique way. "They are very masculine, cut-and-dry and not calculating," she said. Although they can be very direct and ruthless when upset, they are genuine in their relationships with people,

(-) Particularly, men with blood type B - Their only saving grace is that they are incurable romantics who can worm their way into women's hearts despite rather despicable flaws.

(-) People with Type B Blood are curious about and interested in everything. That may be good, but they also tend to have too many interests and hobbies, and they tend to get all excited about something suddenly and then later drop it again just as quickly. But they do manage to know which of their many interests or loved ones are the ones that are really important, the ones they should hold on to.

(-) B Types tend to excel in things rather than just be average. But they tend to be so involved in their own world or become so carried away with something that they neglect other things. They have the image of being bright and cheerful, full of energy and enthusiasm, but some people think that they are really quite different on the inside. And it can also be said about them that they don't really want to have much real contact with others.

(-) A Type B craves above all freedom. They put more value on independence and pragmatism than on community and order. In organizations and groups which do value order, such an attitude may sometimes be frowned upon as immoral. However, this disposition towards freedom also heightens intellectualism and encourages scientific acumen and pursuit of truth. The tendency of Type B's to go about things their own way and express themselves straightforwardly may be the product of their creativity and unreserved behavior.

(-) Type B's are loathe to draw distinctions in anything they do. Sometimes they do not even draw a clear line between business and pleasure. What they would consider to be most important is whatever holds their interest at the time. Be it in their everyday lives or at work, they stick to their area of interest with an innate obsessiveness.

(-) Type B people tend to deal with problems after they arise rather than work on keeping relationships smooth before the fact. For this reason, they are sometimes labeled as "naive". On the other hand they are very sensitive people, understanding of other people's ideas and empathic to their particular situations.

(-) Many Type B people are very shy and seem unapproachable at first. People tend to have the impression that Type B's are a lively bunch, but those are actually few and far between; a greater number are the quiet or reserved sort. However, once you get to know them better, they become more interactive, showing their natural openness and kindness.

(-) Although Type B's seem to live wild and free without paying much heed to the rules of society, the surprising truth is that not many of them really deviate from the norm. In fact, they may be even stricter than other people about following rules which they deem acceptable.

(-) What is most characteristic of Type B's, socially, may be their lack of ambition. Because they are consumed by their interests and hobbies, they put their social ranking on the back burner. The fanatical aspect of the Type B, along with their creativity, has no doubt contributed greatly to science, technology and the arts.

(-) However, Type B people do become impatient and unhappy if they feel that society has alienated them for being a bit too individualistic

Thus, reaching to conclusion...

five classic traits of blood type B boys:
(-) stingy,
(-) charming,
(-) creative,
(-) self-absorbed, and
(-) romantic

AND SUMMER DEAR...........

SAD TO SAY...........

i'm also one of the blood group type B guys...!!!!

p/s: honey, pls read it with alot alot of pinches of salt..

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SummerLove winks
at |4:07 PM|

Saturday, January 07, 2006

i'm glad the girl has decided to pick herself up.. it's been a long time.. and rite now, i knoe she's willing to stand up, perhaps it's time for me to pack up and return to the dark corner.. i always thot myself as a source of disaster and whoever who falls for me will be unhappy.. can i realli provide happiness for her??

i've tried. i've been branded by many.. some as heart-stealer, bastard, 3rd party, and stupid.. perhaps there are many more behind my back but i took it all up in myself.. and i guess, finally the sky has cleared.. and as i always said, as long as summer is happy, safe and sound, nth else matters..

no matter how close i'm with her, she still feels helpless, and lonely.. and her heart no longer beats.. and all she knoes now is that he realli loves her.. i guess so too.. there's nth such as a never-ending song.. all songs will come to an end.. even if no matter how hard you try to change the fate of the song, it eventually ends.. so why not end in a happy note??

these period of time, the girl suffered lots.. and i'm sorry for bringing so much agony and harm.. i'm just so sorry.. i've did all i could to make her stay but each time i made her felt even more miserable.. and now, she's slowly standing up again.. i believe one day, she'll be happy again............. without me..

here's my last song for her - 搁浅

久未放晴的天空 has been a sunless sky for awhile
依旧留着你的笑容 but your smiles were neva forgotten
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚 even though i cried much, i still can't get rid of the guilt i felt towards you

风筝在阴天搁浅 your heart's been flying under thunderstorms
想念还在等待救援 missing you badly yet looking for help for you
我拉着线复习你给的温柔 pulling the strings, thinking back the love you gave

暴晒在一旁的寂寞 the lonliness in me
笑我给不起承诺 laughing at the promises i gave you but could not live to it
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我 how did you forgive me time after time

我只能永远读着对白 i can never play a major role in your life
读着我给你的伤害 what i can do is to bring you more harm
我原谅不了我 i can't live to forgive myself
就请你当作我已不在 so just take that i'm no longer around

我睁开双眼看着空白 i stared at your pictures blankly
忘记你对我的期待 forgetting what was the purpose i'm in your life
读完了依赖我很快就离开 once you're able to stand on your own, perhaps it's time for to say gd bye

i guess i'm sick.. i need a rest now..

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SummerLove winks
at |8:05 PM|

Blog Music:
She Believes In Me - Kenny Rogers

While she lays sleeping
I stay out late at night and play my songs
And sometimes all the nights can be so long
And it's good when I finally make it home, all alone

While she lays dreaming
I try to get undressed without the light
And quietly she says how was your night
And I come to her and say
It was all right, and I hold her tight

And she believes in me
I'll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday if she was my girl I could change the world
With my little songs, I was wrong
But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
And who knows maybe on some special night
If my song is right
I can find a way

While she lays waiting
I stumble to the kitchen for a bite
And I see my old guitar in the night
Just waiting for me like a secret friend
And there's no end while she lays crying
I fumble with a melody or two
And I'm torn between the things that I should do
And she says to wake her up when I am through
God her love is true

And she believes in me
I'll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday if she was my girl I could change the world
With my little songs, I was wrong
But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
And who knows maybe on some special night
If my song is right
I can find a way

While she waits
While she waits
For me

why do i wanna choose this song? there are many reasons in fact.. summer realli believes in me.. be it going out with friends, taking up challenges at work or even driving related stuffs.. sometimes i realli wonder what does she realli sees in me..??

i like pampering her and making her like a princess.. bcos making her a princess makes me a prince charming in her life.. hehe.. i'm so dreamy as my mood implies.. hahaha.. today summer is realli sweet.. i went to bed without her and she joined me after watching her vcds.. wanted to talk to her in the nite, but i was realli realli tired recently.. work burden gets heavier each day.. and TGIF (thank god it's friday) tmr..

she woke me up in the morning.. *yawn* it was such a nice and warm feeling to be sleeping in her arms, and she accompanied me till i left the house.. oooh.. so sweet.. then she msged me while i was on the bus "honey, suddenly i miss your hug.." oh man.. just wanna get down the bus and rushed back to her..

today she went out with her 2 friends.. it's realli nice when you get to knoe ur other half's friends.. but of course, not in the possessive way.. but i like to act possessive to crack the girl up.. i just like the way she laughs shyly.. hahaha.. it's realli realli sweet..

then she asked me to tell her friends that "my pretty girlfriend say you are the most romantic and handsome boyfriend".. hahaha..

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SummerLove winks
at |10:15 AM|

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

i took the girl's hand as we slept thru the nite in each other's arms.. back to the world which we built with trust, love and lots of care.. we haven been sleeping well for rather long time.. last nite was very peaceful and we were contented just lying in each other's arms..

she gave me a kiss as she woke me up "Lao gong, it's time to wake up for work.." well, i dun even feel like going anywhere but in her arms now.. i realli wished morning din come.. but as reality sets in, i can only be thankful that last nite came.. that i had someone to hug in my sleep..

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SummerLove winks
at |6:05 AM|

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Thank You For Loving Me - Bon Jovi

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Solo

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

today i went to work, dejected.. feeling as if my world has met with an asteroid.. when i got on the bus, i turned on my zen micro as usual.. this song started playing.. this part of the lyrics:

"All I've got to give to you...
Are these five words when I.......
.....Thank you for loving me"

i began fighting... fighting with my inner self, my tears and my life.. i failed to win over any.. i sat there, allowing the sorrowness to drown me.. i was sitting at the back and not many ppl board the bus today.. so i just looked outside of the window, thinking back of the memories i had with summer..

i went straight to my office without turning into the canteen.. no appetite.. i immediately started working.. finally the girl picked up my call.. our tears couldn't hold any longer.. we just allowed it to flow freely.. anyway the girl has decided to take a break everything and wished to do whatever she wants to.. and for me, i was unwilling to let go.. i have been single for quite awhile and while she has just ended one..

till she said this...
"pls give me some time to look for myself.. before i can give myself to you..."

i then finally realised.. sometimes it doesn't mean that protecting it will give the best effects.. and as i watch tiramisu on channel 5, sharon au taught me something.. if we're going to part for 3 yrs, and torn between 2 choices - the guy and the career or studies, which will you give up..

i was telling my sis that the guy is too selfish to make the girl choose at this moment.. but as soon as i said it, i had a sudden guilt over me.. i realised i was too selfish too.. but anyway i decided to follow her wishes.. as her boyfriend, if i can't even help her in her last wish for me, i realli shldn't be her boyfriend in the first place.. i dun deserve her..

i think rite now, is also a gd chance for us to get to knoe each other better.. knowing each other well will prevent frequent brushes against each other's temper.. and i also knoe, she doesn't want it to be this way.. she just can't help it..

from tonite, i'll not have anyone to hug to sleep.. i always think that as long as we love each other, we'll overcome everything.. but now, i believe that if i'm able to give her the simple happiness that she has been asking for - to be free, even if i'm sad to let her go, i'll still let her go..

so dear, for the last time.......................

Thank You For Loving Me....

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SummerLove winks
at |9:18 PM|

in the end, she still chose to leave..

i guess i left more than a hundred calls, i guess i left many other msgs.. but nothing can melt the heart which has hardened.. and i knoe you'll be reading this, my love.. i understand the amount of stress you had to undergo because of me.. and you realli need a break rite now..

but taking a break and a total break is 2 different topics.. you shld knoe that, it's impossible for me to like another girl.. so pls stop pushing me to them.. i remember telling you once that once i set my sight on a girl i love, it's not even possible for me to like another now, tmr or even 10yrs later..

what you think is trying to protect me from further harm is actually tearing us apart.. we already dun have much time together.. i remember you once asked me to let you go and see how much you miss me..

what you took away with you, was your blog, your thots and my heart.. but i'm glad you took it away, for even if it's still remains in the body, it'll just be a useless one.. yest nite, i went to every single house which was on the 6th floor.. i knocked on every door and i guess i've found yours but you refused to open the door for me..

there are many solutions to the problem, why do we wanna take the most hurting one?? din we promised to hold on and till we can't hold on one day, we'll still remain as good friends?? you promised neva to leave me again, you promised to stay by me.. you promised to marry me.. where have all our promises gone??

i knoe this period is not easy, but it isn't that difficult as well.. perhaps, what u need now is a good rest and a cooling period.. but pls pick up my calls and reply my msgs okie?? take me as just your normal friend.. tell me what's going on in your life..

pls go to the secret garden and tell me how u're doing.. i'll stay at the bus stop everyday after work, till u're willing to see me.. i got many things i wanna tell you.. fatty also misses you alot.. he asked me abt you when he saw me going home, with tears washing my face..

dun leave me, dear.. even if it takes me 5 waiting years, 10 or longer, my heart has already moulded into the shape of your face.. no one else will fit into the picture.. i knoe you think, with my character, i'll probably get another girlfriend in another few wks.. but... my heart is not able to like someone else..

i knoe you wanna go thru this period alone.. bcos you dun wan me to wait with you and feel tortured.. dun worry, i'll stand by you.. quietly.. as you always wanted me to be.. if it takes me everything to get you back, i'll pay everything i ever have..

i'll wait for you again this evening.. i love you, lao po..

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SummerLove winks
at |5:57 AM|

Monday, January 02, 2006

a friend of mine asked me what's my perfect wedding.. here's just a little appetizers for my honey..

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2118005627

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SummerLove winks
at |2:53 PM|

Life!Horoscopes

Taurus (April 21 - May 21)
Try communication. It is the key to unlocking so much happening between you and someone very important in your life. It is important to set ground rules first before you start getting into it, though.

Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 20)
Never fear: The stars are here to stage an astro-intervention. A wave of good cosmic energy is here to wipe out the recent emotional hardship you have suffered. All you have to do is enjoy it.

*in today's Life! section of The Straits Times

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SummerLove winks
at |11:05 AM|

Sunday, January 01, 2006

How Romantic Are You?

hi there everyone, pls get ready a pc of paper or ur mobile and record your answers so that you can check them after you're done.. pls do not play cheat for the most truthful answer..

1. WHAT SHADE OF HAIR DO YOU HAVE?
a) Dark
b) Light

2. OUT ON A DATE WOULD YOU WANT TO:
a) Go to a party?
b) Go out to eat?

3. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR OUT OF:
a) Baby-Pink
b) Yellow
c) Baby-Blue
d) Turquoise

4. PICK YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBY OUT OF:
a) Surfing
b) Skate-Boarding
c) Skiing

5. IF YOU COULD PICK A STORE OUT OF THE FOLLOWING, WHICH WOULD IT BE?
a) Louie Vuitton
b) coach
c) againt all odds

6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE OUT OF THE FOLLOWING?
a) hawaii
b) London
c) florida

7. IN THE SUMMER WOULD YOU RATHER GO TO:
a) The Beach?
b) Somewhere Cooler?

8. WHAT IS YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH?
a) January
b) February
c) March
d) April
e) May
f) June
g) July
h) August
i) September
j) October
k) November
l) December

9. WOULD YOU RATHER:
a) Chill at home
b) Go out with friends

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE INSTRUMENT OUT OF:
a) Guitar
b) Bass guitar
c) Drums
d) The Triangle

11) NAME A PERSON OF THE OPPOSITE SEX

**ANSWERS**
1.
a. dark= sexy [5points]
b. light = sweet [2 points]

2.
a. go to a party = playful [2 points]
b. go out to eat = romantic [5 points]

3.
a. baby-pink = cute [2]
b. yellow = loud [3]
c. baby-blue = cool [5]
d. turquoise = sexy [5]

4.
a. surfing = active [2]
b. skateboarding = determined [2]
c. skiing = daring [5]

5.
a. Louie Vuitton = tasteful [7]
b. coach = laid back [2]
c. againt all odds = stylish [5]

6.
a. hawaii = you like being around people [2]
b. London = You are quiet, and like the cold [2]
c. florida = You like to party! [5]

7.
a. beach = tan, likes the sun [5]
b. somewhere cooler = pale and original[2]

8.
a. January = popular [5]
b. February = lovely [2]
c. March = loud [2]
d. April = playful [5]
e. May = happy [5]
f. june = chills a lot [5]
g. July = smooth [2]
h. August = fun [5]
i. September = quiet [2]
j. October = out-going [2]
k. November = pimpin' it [5]
l. December = warm [2]

9.
a. home = quiet, romantic [5]
b. go out with friends = crazy [5]

10.
a. guitar = eye-catching [5]
b. bass-guitar = mellow [2]
c. Drums = loud [2]
d. Triangle = crazy [5]

11. This person will fall in love with you!

The Verdict?

BELOW 17 = LOUSY GET A LIFE MAN
18-20=OKEY
21-35 = Rather ROMANTIC
36+ = SUPER ROMANTIC... U ROCK

i scored a 44 out of a total 52 points..!! hahaha.. the verdict? SUPER ROMANTIC... U ROCK ! so....
summer dear, you got urself a very romantic boyfriend..!! hahaha..

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SummerLove winks
at |9:15 PM|

Blog Music : A World Of Our Own

Somewhere a dream away
There is a better place, a brighter day
Somewhere that's safe, somewhere that's free
Where we can be together

So just close your eyes and let me take you there
To somewhere only dreamers ever go
It won't be just a fantasy (Oh no)
If you believe with me
The two of us all alone
In a world of our own

A world of our own
Where we know we belong
A world of our own
Where love is sure and strong can never die
And lovers never say goodbye

Someday a light will shine
And there will come a time
That's yours and mine
A time so sweet
So clear and true
We'll see right to forever

So just close your eyes and let me take you there
To somewhere only dreamers ever go
It won't be just a fantasy (oh no)
If you believe with me
The two of us all alone
In a world of our own

A world of our own
Where we know we belong
A world of our own (A world of our own)
Where love is sure and strong can never die
And lovers never say goodbye

So wrap your arms around me
And we'll leave it all behind
We'll go where no one else will ever find us

So just close your eyes and let me take you there
(Instrument Break)
It won't be just a fantasy (Oh no)
If you believe with me
We can make it come true (True if you'll be there)
Just by loving each other (Loving each other)
The two of us all alone in a world of our own

A world of our own
Where we know we belong
A world of our own (A world of our own)
Where love is sure and strong can never die
And you and I won't ever say...goodbye

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SummerLove winks
at |5:22 PM|

What if you have only one year left to live?

i read the papers this morning, when i came across this article and found it very interesting..

if i only have one year left to live, i'll definitely ponder if i shld ask the girl to leave or to stay with me.. afterall, it will not be a nice feeling for either choice..

after thinking thru, i think i'll be selfish enough to ask her to stay by me.. i'll propose to her and we'll have at least a kid so that Summer will not be lonely, and after i'm gone, at least the creation of our love will still remains.. i'll then get all my close friends out and spend as much time and as equal time so as not to make any of them feel left out..

i'll also spend the rest of my time with Summer and arrange everything so that she wont feel at a loss after i depart.. i'll write many letters, take as much pictures and videos that i can, so that my child will knoe who's the lucky husband of his mummy.. i'll also record every yr's bdae songs for my child as well..

i'll also try to write a book to inspire everyone not to give up on their loved ones.. no matter how many storms, no matter how hard the road is ahead.. no matter how much our other half will make us angry, at the end of the day, it's all abt them that we're living for, it's all abt them that we're breathing for..

and on my very last day, i'll take the girl to watch the most beautiful sunset ever and lay in her arms till i breathe my last.. and till death do us part..

if i only have one month left to live, i'll take Summer as my wife and bring her to all the romantic places i ever wanted to take her to, i'll also watch with her every sunset from wherever i can in the 30 days.. hugs, kisses and cuddles will all be filling up the 30 days.. as for my friends, i think they'll understand that i'm running out of time..

if i only have one day left to live, i think the only regret i'll ever have is not being able to tell Summer enough how much i love her and will rush to her now, no matter where she is and bring her on a date.. i'll also get her the most beautiful bouquet of white tulips and the nicest diamond ring i can ever afford..

i think this is a sensitive topic and some ppl feel that we shldn't be talking abt it on new yr day.. but who can escape from the claw of the demon, who eventually takes away everyone you love.. for this, if tmr neva comes, i hope everyone will have happiness in one way or another..

Happy New Year 2006 to everyone.. and here's something nice for you guys to take a look..

http://www.im.tv/vlog/personal.asp?FID=25487&Memid=201655&SubId=&VideoPage=3&Videonext5=0

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SummerLove winks
at |1:33 AM|