Tuesday, February 28, 2006

How Protective You Are To Me

he: "no need to keep saying how good you (me) are, said he see already sianz or something."

just this sentence along, sets me thinking for quite awhile.. i rarely get fed up or irritated by comments from other ppl.. esp ignorant people.. but i always wonder what happened if your other half is under constant attacks from idiots living outside our world..

will she stand up and slap him with an unkind comment or will she keep quiet and allows the whole world to jump on him?

perhaps i'll neva knoe.. cos in another 11 days, i'll be leaving her.. just carrying loads and loads of love and trust into camp.. perhaps there maybe a forever??

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SummerLove winks
at |6:03 AM|

Monday, February 27, 2006

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SummerLove winks
at |6:31 PM|

I Hate You..

“Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay~ ”

"I hate you"

"ok.. den u leave. you can't find me anymore. Gd bye"

wat more can i say? from now, i'll learn to take in single damn thing that is thrown in my face.. it's hard to imagine how can someone treats you well one min, and changed the face almost as immediately.. i shld have known myself better.. always getting into trouble..

if ur heart is so full of hatred, it's all hatred for the guy.. well, it's just another 12 days.. i'll carry the 3 words with me till the day i breathe my last - I Hate You..

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SummerLove winks
at |6:01 AM|

Sunday, February 26, 2006

What Kind of Boyfriend I Am..

i'm very sorry towards her.. for liking someone like me.. for everyone who knoes me, most of them got to knoe my temper first.. just like summer.. i can like anybody in the world, but it's hard for me to fall in love..

meeting summer, perhaps could be one of the best thing that happened in my life, and it well could be her worst nitemare.. firstly, i like to be attended most of the time, which means whenever i want her to be by me, she has to be by me.. i like to be given full attention from her.. and anything which i dun like abt her, i'll say it out..

and bcos of this, often i hurt her feelings.. when i want something, i always insist of having it and thus, this makes summer in a very difficult position.. i always told myself that i'll neva be one of those possesive kind of boyfriends that will hurt their gfs and in the end, they'll neva have a gd ending..

i must admit i'm more towards the possessive kind.. and many a times, she gotta attend to me first before anything else.. she got to put everything on hold, just to talk to me or reply my smses.. and bcos of this, i always feel that i'll never be gd enough for her..

i must say, walking so long into this relationship with her, was never an easy stroll.. many times i realli feel like giving her up and to prevent myself from being sad.. we have broken up many times and each time, i just feel some bits of feelings fade away.. but time seems to prove everything wrong.. it seems that after each breakup, i just feel more in love with her..

she'll never tell another soul how badly i treated her and this makes me very ashamed of myself cos i always confide in my buddy and said quite abit of nasty things abt summer.. she always give me a feeling that i'm not someone of importance to her.. it's like, whether i'm here or not, she'll not care, neither will she bother..

so why shld i still continue to be with her, and make myself more miserable?? perhaps u can say i'm cheap, or perhaps u can say in this world, there wont be anybody to like me anymore.. but i believe, it's that i knoe in this world, no one will ever love me as deeply as she does..

it always bring a tear in my eye, simply just thinking abt this.. there are some qns i always wanted to ask her, and i believe i've asked her many times which she doesn't have an answer.. i always have a sense of guilt towards her.. i knoe that eventually one day, i'll have to let her go.. but i also knoe for her, i truly found someone i can lean on, and also a confidant who understands me so well..

i can never express my sorries to her and how much i owe her for what i am today.. the good memories, the bad times.. the laughters, and of course, the tears.. memories is what we created like chapters of a story.. it doesn't always have to be happily forever after.. but it could be a neverending story..

she will continue to stand by me, i knoe.. even though we may have our disagreements quite a few times but i believe we'll solve it by ourselves.. no one else is able to help us, but ourselves.. my temper is something which i'll never be able to get rid but have to contain in within.. i shld spare more considerations to her feelings before i express my anger in certain superficial things..

as her bf, i fail to bring her only happiness, but also lots of sadness which many times, she too, gave both hands up and surrender to her fate.. i knoe that even if i die tonite in my sleep, i'll die the way she always wanted me to be - a confident guy who knoes what he's doing and able to give happiness to the one he loves the most..

i used to think that i can lose anything in me, except my sight.. but now, i want my eyes to see the most beautiful thing on mother earth, i want my ears to listen to the sweetest voice ever and my lips to tell her how much i thank her for staying by me.. in another 2wks, i'll bidding gdbye to her and enter my national service..

many things will change.. my hair will go, my social life will go, my freedom will go, but my heart will always stay.. there's one thing that will never change, i'll always keep falling in love with her.. i spent quite a few moments to think thru what i wan to write before typing everything in.. cos i dun wan to miss out anything then regret after that..

whatever i do, or whatever i say, will definitely brings abt a consequence which can be good or hurtful.. i dun wish to hurt this little lady of mine anymore.. and for this, i can only say..

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SummerLove winks
at |12:56 AM|

Thursday, February 23, 2006

It's Time..

We've been together for 5 yrs le.. i'm quite sad to say, i decided to break off with you le.. actually, i've been wondering for quite awhile when i shld tell you.. but i think, perhaps this is a gd time lah..

i'm very tired of having to attend to you.. even though it's once a mth, but i can't afford.. my current one is so much better.. at least doesn't cost me so much.. i'm sorry, ya?? dun be too sad and hope you wont hate me too much...

sighz.. i've decided to change my phone line le.. i've been with this old sim card for the past 5 yrs le.. since i got my OWN mobile (as in i start to pay my own bill and paid for the phone myself), i've been using this number le.. so it's time for a new change.. very happy to get my new number.. very easy to remember and nice to hear too..

you guys can log into your msn (if u knoe me..!!) and get my new mobile no..!!

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SummerLove winks
at |10:40 PM|

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

It Is Love..

found this in a friend's friendster page:

It is Love that gives me purpose
to change and grow and learn.
It is Love that guides me on this path
and helps me choose each turn.

It is Love that gives me courage
to stand against my fears;
to open up my heart to you,
to let you see my tears.

It is Love that gives me trust and hope
when little thing go wrong.
When distance stands between us,
it is Love that keeps me strong.

It is Love that offers harmony
and a friendship that is true.
How wonderful that I can share
a Love like this with you!

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SummerLove winks
at |11:45 PM|

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Sleepless..

as again, a sleepless night,
looking out of a window was a lovely sight,
enjoying the dark and beautiful peace,
like the "music of the nite"- a lovely piece.

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SummerLove winks
at |6:02 AM|

Monday, February 20, 2006

If You Noticed..

i left a surprise..

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SummerLove winks
at |10:19 PM|

i'm super irritated..

u knoe wat, i'm super irritated now .. i think i've woken up on the wrong side of the bed.. well, damn.. my bed is all the way to the wall, so i can only wake up from the rite side.. just feeling very heaty now.. like as if i can burn someone alive if he/she comes along and decided to spoil my day..

this is the consequence that you'll get if you din hug the one you love to bed every nite .. you'll not have a good day.. cos a gd day starts if there is a gd nite sleep.. well, i din have mine.. cos i was missing summer..

last nite, i can't sleep.. so tossed and turned in bed.. msg the girl to tell her i can't sleep.. but she was sleeping pretty sweetly.. so i was alone.. i began to think of her.. and slowly, i realised how much i wanted to her i love you.. cos last nite i din..

how much attention can we each spare to our other halfs?? and will you realli drop everything just to be home with me when i needed you??

thinking, thinking, and lots of thinking..

i just simply trust you when you said you will..

hehe.. now, my day is brightening..

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SummerLove winks
at |6:01 AM|

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Knowing & Understanding

Knowing: to be aware of a fact or a specific piece of information.

Understanding: To know and be tolerant or sympathetic toward, to know thoroughly by close contact or long experience with.

Eg:
(-) i know he likes to eat chicken rice
(-) i understand when he likes to eat chicken rice

Eg:
(-) i know he loves me
(-) i understand he loves me even though we may disagreements at times

Eg:
(-) if only she knows how i feel
(-) if only she understands my feelings

Eg:
(-) i know he doesn't like me to do such things
(-) i understand he dislikes such things, and i wont do it again

Eg:
(-) i know he has a bad temper
(-) i understand he has a bad temper due to the recent problem.

i just like it when i can do my thinking properly..

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SummerLove winks
at |2:14 PM|

Friday, February 17, 2006

i can't sleep.. so i woke up, did my usual and sat by the computer.. it's very weird and sad that i only have this channel to release my deepest thots.. some ppl can tell it to their other halfs, some to their buddies while some even to their parents.. i chose to tell it to myself..

there are many things in life that i go after.. but a few hrs ago, i chose to end the relationship with summer.. we were okie the nite before and all it takes is just a disagreement for her mood to swing.. i shan't elaborate the topic here but as long as i can face my conscience that what i did was truly for the best concern of her, i believe even her mum will be pleased with me..

it's true that guys use logic to think, while ladies use their emotions to think.. u'll be surprised to knoe how a sweet-tempered lady will be when she suddenly had her thots messed up.. i believe we shld knoe what's more important and that shld be carried out first.. but sadly, she believes in doing whatever she likes at the very point of time..

if so, why am i unable to sleep then? well, i dunno.. i was thinking abt the relationship which i ended.. why wasn't i sad this time? i am.. i'm sad that she can't be a little more understanding to knoe the position i'm standing and the views that i see.. if she doesn't even understand what you're going thru, what's more to talk abt love?

i dun wan to end the relationship when i'm beginning to dislike or hate her.. so i chose to end it when i still believe the love i had now is as fresh as the first day.. her voice i heard, was as if i'm her arch-enermy.. why go thru all these just to feed the ego of yours? summer said i was just a painting to her.. cos my words are only nice to look at and i dun mean them at all.. to me, this is pretty hurting and she doesn't realised it at all..

i dun wan someone who doesn't treasure me at all.. neither do i wan someone who uses "breakup" as an excuse for every single damn thing that went wrong.. i just wan her to understand my point of view and even if we disagree on it, there's no reason to breakup.. but since she took breakup as a light matter, it just shows how much you mean to her..

i remember telling her that pls do not regret to whatever she said.. i thot she'll think thru of what she said and perhaps realised what's wrong.. but what i din expected was reply telling me not to challenge her.. alrite, if you think so, i shan't enforce my thinking on you.. if you think i'm challenging you, i wont say anymore..

there are many things i learnt during my grandma's funeral.. you seriously wont knoe what you've lost till the day you loses the thing.. i thot i'll be fine at my grandma's funeral but actually i realised that i do miss her.. but it's too late.. she's gone..

perhaps what's left between summer and i, are true feelings which we will not reveal to each other.. i'm sad now that things din went smoothly between us which i thot after a period of time, we'll have this common understanding of each other.. but i'm glad with myself that i knoe there are some things which money can't buy - the memories that we shared together.. and perhaps that will be one of the best moments of my life..

of course, if you ask me if i still wanna get back with her, i still say i truly do.. and that will certainly be the wish for my every yr's bdae.. i want her to knoe that i break up with her doesn't mean i have lost the trust and feelings in her.. but it's just that i realli hope she knoes what is missing in her life.. not a painting, but a guy who truly loves her and will love her in the most special way that most guys will not be able to give..

and in a moment like this, some people do wait for a lifetime.. but i'll carry the faith you had of me wherever i go.. i will love you, until the end of time.. if only u truly knoe how i feel..

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SummerLove winks
at |5:13 AM|

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Kelly Clarkson - A Moment Like This

What if I told you it was all meant to be?
Would you believe me? Would you agree?
It's almost that feeling that we've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
when I tell you love has come here and now

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Everything changes but beauty remains
Something so tender I can't explain
I may be dreaming but until I awake
Can't we make this dream last forever?
And I'll cherish all the love we share

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Could this be the greatest love of all?
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this...

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one special kiss
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me

Some people wait a lifetime for a moment, a moment like this...
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me..
some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this.

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SummerLove winks
at |6:05 PM|

Leaf, Tree and Wind.

the quote:
“Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay~ ”

everyone have played at least a role in this quote.. be it a leaf, tree and wind.. now, have been together with summer for the past 2 mths, we had our fair share of arguements, quarrels, screaming, crying, etc.. after my grandma passed away, i realised i needed someone alot..

with her, i used to think that i'm the leaf.. but at that time, the quote in my mind was
"Leaf (me) departure is not because of wind's (another girl) persuit, but because there are too many leaves (sam, zheyan, etc) on the tree.. with or with my piece, it doesn't make a difference.. she'll still be happy.."

then over time, it changed to..
"Leaf's (her) heart is too heavy and wind (me) couldn't blow her away"

i used to think that i'm not someone of importance to her.. bcos with me, her life also like that.. without me, her life also like that.. we tried breaking up many times.. but of course, we got back together cos we just can't live without each other for less than a day.. i dunno how much effort she's putting in, neither do i knoe how much i'm putting in..

but i remember saying to her that my way of loving is my way of loving.. your ways is your way.. but at the end of the day, we knoe that the feeling is balanced between the 2 of us.. it's like at the end of the day, my feelings for her and her feelings for me is true..

i dunno if she'll ever leave me one day.. as what we always say, all good things will come to an end.. but if she wants to leave, no matter what i do, she'll still not stay.. and on this valentine's day, i still wanna tell her i love her as much as i do on the first day i told her my feelings - 12 dec 2005..

I like summer. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. she's just so cute at times and u can feel her smiles from well within the bottom of the little heart of hers..

but now i knoe for her to me is true, this is my final quote..
"It's not that leaf (her) heart is too heavy. It because leaf (her) never want to leave tree (me).."

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SummerLove winks
at |5:40 PM|

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Christian Wunderlich - That's My Way To Say GoodBye

It's easy for those
Who're gone
But hard to carry on
The good and bad
Belong to us
Like a prayer to a priest
So I wonder
Who will care for me
When my heart's crying a pain
And the only thing
That I can do
Is wait, can I wait?

Time will tell
What's on my mind
Tears will flow
Until my eyes go blind
Oh, I sing until I cry, 'cause
That's my way to say goodbye

We built castles in the air
And we watched
The world out there
And now there's nothingI can do
But wait, I'll wait for you

Time will tell
What's on my mind
Tears will flow
Until my eyes go blind
Oh, I sing until I cry, 'cause
That's my way to say goodbye

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it's hard when i held her hands,
as i felt she's coming to an end,
i felt very bad towards the lovely old her,
and i'm proud to say she's my lovely grandmother..

no one knoes what's up tomorrow,
so dun ever think that time is slow,
bcos you may be gone in a twinkling of an eye,
by then, i think it's a lil too late to even cry..

now i can only stand by my granny,
cos her few days left are not by many,
i wish i had been there earlier,
to let her knoe that i'm already here..

rite now she can't recognise anyone,
even her son - my dad, she speaks to no one,
she can now hardly be heard,
yearns to be free, i guess she hopes to be a bird..

i dun remember holding her hands,
2 wks ago, she could even hardly stand,
almost a year ago, before she moved out, she cried,
a bad quarrel in the family, i dunno who's wrong or rite..

i was wondering if i'll be sad,
thinking now of the sadness i then had,
time will definitely tell me what's on my mind,
will i be alrite enough to leave the past on behind..

we dun knoe how it feels like till we face it,
but we shld learn to treasure bit by bit,
pls stay by the people you love so much,
cos all of us, facing the pathway to heaven we all march..

i love her (summer) as much as i always do,
and i knoe she loves me deeply as much too,
and as for my granny, the only grandson guy
perhaps That's My Way To Say Goodbye....

- Ler Kelvin

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SummerLove winks
at |10:17 PM|

It's Like That..

why am i like that?? knowing that i'm like that, i still say like this.. i knoe it cannot be like this, so no choice, i have to say like that.. but everyone understands it that way, but u think of it as this way..

hopefully your this way will work.. if not, i guess, i'll go my that way..

hahaha.. just so nice to be irritating at times..

tired..

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SummerLove winks
at |6:07 AM|

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Richard Marx - Now and Forever

Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness when my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you seem to understand
Now and forever I will be your man.

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you each and every way I can
Now and forever I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
If I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time
Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever I will be your man
Now and forever I will be your man

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SummerLove winks
at |9:29 PM|

Hair..

i spent 30 bucks on my hair today.. went to cut at kimage.. to many ppl, they may think that it's common for kel to spend so much on his hair since he loves it so much.. but i've always spent a mere $10 on cutting my hair.. bcos i find that since both will also make your hair short, i'll just pop by any shop just to have a little trim..

my hair is dry, rough, and i have natural curls.. so it's a little hard to handle my hair.. but i always like to request for girls to wash my hair.. i realli love the feeling of having someone's fingers running thru your hair.. and i believe i said once that i dun let anyone touch my hair.. and it's true.. i like the feeling of the girl massaging your head, releasing all the stress that's in my head..

i truly feel so great after that.. today at kimage was also another nice experience.. she'll tell me what's wrong with my hair, how to take care, etc.. then she asked me to lie down and ask me if i'm realli tired cos it's kinda written all over my face.. and i said yea.. then she said she can wash away all the fatigue..

hehe.. i like my hair to be washed by someone professional..

wash wash wash.. wash all my probs and tiredness away..

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SummerLove winks
at |9:00 PM|

Monday, February 06, 2006

许志安, 许慧欣 - 恋爱频率

男:
好久没有吹微风的晚上
我们看着山下都市灯光
你说快乐和自由
是穷人的天堂
这种想法我很喜欢oh—

女:
你要我闭上眼睛想像
有我看不见的一个远方
你说地球是乐园
要用心去游览
这种说法多浪漫

男:心在飞
女:心在飞
男:路很长
女:路很长
男:我们是彼此的避风港

男:听着你
女:I Believe
男:聊到从前和未来
合:你心里所有的梦跟我很像

合:
oh you light up my life
所以我也希望我们心中频率都一样

女:梦加点感觉
男:思念装上翅膀
合:爱是无限可能的飞翔

合: oh—you light up my life
我想让你分享
我们心动时分的梦想

女:这是一个开始
男:还是一种分享
合:未来正在等待不是吗

男(独白):一直跟你说那天一起吃晚饭
想问你开心吗
这些日子
看着你
造着自己的梦想
快乐专心的每个样子
我想我们的梦想有一样的频率
不是吗

合:未来我想和你分享

i neva fails to give my girl anything she wants.. and i'm glad this time i'm able to again.. dear, enjoy your song.. smiles..

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SummerLove winks
at |11:17 AM|

Funny, Isn't It?

i wasn't working today cos i took my mum to the doc.. then i went blog-hopping around my friends' blogs which i seldom do.. i saw a friend's blog and was surprised she actually had a blog.. but anyway here's interesting which i copied and pasted it here..

It's been like... 3 years? yea... and I still love you... I reali do... Believe...

I may throw tantrums... alot.
I may say I hate you... alot.
I may ignore you... alot.
I may call you at unearthly hours and piss you off... alot.

But, I still Love you, dear... alot. =)

Sometimes I feel the journey with you is long and winding... tired... very tired... I guess, maybe without all that encouragment from you, we may have ended a long long time ago.. Thanks,da...

I feel so puzzled at times... Why on earth would you like someone who ill-treat you almost everyday? I will never find and answer to that... never... as long as I'm with you, I'll never.. The simple reply from you may irritate me sometimes but then again, so sweet.. " cos I love you"

"BULLSHIT!" I'll always reply... but i cant deny its sweet... haha...

Love love... We cant say we'll go on for how long... But as long as Im with you, Im loved...

Love, da...

so damn cute rite?? actually my girl always ask me the same qns too.. i think girls have a common issue.. they like to trash their bf up.. but they knoe we won't get mad, but rather love them more..

happy 3rd anniversary to the friend.. stay happy forever..

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next, here's something which aaron just sent me.. how bout taking a look??

Is your honey high-maintenance?

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SummerLove winks
at |10:31 AM|

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Understanding..

i think i need some.. i got abit from aaron, abit from summer, and abit from my bosses.. my mum just fainted this evening.. we were celebrating my cousin's 12th bdae.. i dun even knoe my mum fainted.. but now she's alrite.. thanks for ur regards, aaron.. realli needed it.. he promised to pray for my mum to get well again..

next, my dad just told me my grandma hasn't have more sunshine days to see.. tmr i'll be visiting her.. i'm bringing my "girlfriend" there.. i hope as wat aaron says, hope things will turn out better for me.. hope everyone is healthy, safe and sound..

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SummerLove winks
at |11:53 PM|

Wang Li Hong - Kiss GoodBye

baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手
彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口
但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心
好好欣赏你的美

幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走
去跟随

每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味

每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

Goodbye...

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SummerLove winks
at |10:59 AM|

Friday, February 03, 2006

You May Never Know..

(1) i always like to drink from the corner of the cup.. not in the centre, or the sides.. but at the end where you hold the cup itself..

(2) i dun like to share soup with more than a person.. which means, i dun mind sharing the food in it, but i dun like the idea of having a few ppl, drinking from their spoons and putting their saliva back into the soup..

(3) i may look like a very hi-tech person but actually, i'm truly an idiot in I.T.. i took close to 3mths to knoe how to do up a blog but of course, i'm a fast learner and a keen one if i'm interested in something..

(4) i dun like the idea of myself wearing watch on the right hand, no matter how big my watch is.. i just prefer to put it the right way by wearing it on the left.. but sometimes it gets realli difficult to write, i'll just take it off..

(5) my memory is just like a sparkle.. it'll burn and gets itself very creative but after ten secs, perhaps i'll even forget if there's a spark in the first place.. i can forget abt anything in the world, including some friends, whereby on the streets, some whom like i've seen before, or perhaps not..

(6) i must have mints in the morning.. i can't let bad breath has any opportunity to spoil my mood..

(7) after wearing levis for the first time, rite now, i never look at any other brands of jeans other than G-star.. so i'm a levis guy..

(8) i can do ironing..

(9) my eyes are realli realli tiny in the morning.. sometimes they even look like cats' eyes..

(10) i dun like ppl to touch my hair.. not that it's very nice, smooth or cool.. but i think it's just not rite to go mess up another person's hair and you dun even knoe what's in his head.. perhaps, there's a nest of something going on in his head and you gladly touched your hair soon after.. yucks..

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SummerLove winks
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Thursday, February 02, 2006

Our Mind

our mind is truly a powerful tool,
can do us good, and very bad too,
how i wish i can forget about yesterday,
so i can live my new life every single day..

when we allow our mind to wander and wonder,
will it change our mindset further and further,
how i wish you can forget about yesterday,
but i knoe if without it, there wouldn't be today..

why do we particularly think of that someone else,
when we once thought of the pain they gave, you wished them hell,
i don't deny that i do think of her,
but i knoe i'm now attached, it's where i adhere..

can we stop our great mind from thinking,
perhaps this is the question you are pondering,
give it some time to let things go,
if you can't, you have to let me knoe..

- ler kelvin

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SummerLove winks
at |6:02 AM|

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

I'm Sorry, Dear..

before my dearest just msged me, i had a sudden wave of guilt banging hard on me.. i just feel so bad towards her.. i'm so angry with myself.. realli hope she'll slap me awake.. i've always put her on top of everything.. but i neglected her just now.. due to gambling.. sighz.. my bad habit..

shortly after dinner, my family (excluding my dad) wanted to play mahjong but too bad, my younger sis got sch tmr.. so no choice.. postpone to fri nite, sat and sun... so we played card games.. initially wasn't doing too well.. lost abit.. but after that, luck changed.. i was winning almost every single hand..

winning then got over my head and i totally forgotten i left my dear at home without a msg or a call.. after playing, it was 11 plus.. then i suddenly thot of summer.. OH SHIT!! what the hell have i done.. i'm just such a sucker..

i immediately msged her.. but she din reply.. then i just felt so sad and bad.. i truly am.. i think i shld knoe when to stop and pay some attention to her.. she was realli nice.. she din msg me, knowing that i'm gambling.. i think she did msged me but i forgot if i replied her or not..

summer, if u're reading this tmr morning, pls forgive me.. i'm realli sorry.. i realli din meant to let you out.. i realli truly felt bad.. but luckily she replied me abt 15mins ago, saying she's going to bathe and will call me at 11.30pm.. sometimes i think i'm just realli plain lucky..

here's what my dearest msged me this morning which moved me close to tears.. yes.. i'm a guy but i got feelings too..

"just remember no matter what happens, i truly love you with all my heart and soul.."

then while i was busy at work today, she actually msged me while she was busy too

"dear, i didn't forget abt you.. i'm very busy today.."

so sweet..............................................

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SummerLove winks
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