Sunday, April 02, 2006

My Last Memory

her last words dated on 28 March 2005; 8.52pm.. shall become the best and the only memory i have of this girl.. i will come back to write when i'm able to face this blog again.. in the meantime, i shall take a short break from everything..

looking back since the first entry about us till now, i smiled and told myself - be thankful the bus ever stopped here.. for it will neva stop here anymore..

take care in the meantime, my readers.. thanks to many people for ur advices and comforting words during this period of time.. and of course,

thank you, my lovely summer... for your love and care.. we shall bid our farewell here.. these are the last words she wrote in this blog.. like a candle, let's enjoy the warmth even if it's for a short stint.. at least it left us all with a very warm feeling..

farewell..


I think I finally am able to put into words why I feel so reluctant to let him go.

it's not because I want him there,
but because I want to be there for him.

it's not because I want him to hold my hand,
but because I want to hold his hand.

it's not because I want him to smile for me,
but because I want to make him smile.

it's not because I want to talk to him,
but because I want him to have me to talk to.

it's not because I want to hear him say it,
but because I want to tell him "I love you".

.2 weeks.
.14 days.
.336 hours.
.20160 minutes.
.1209600 seconds.

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SummerLove winks
at |3:51 PM|

Saturday, April 01, 2006

I Shldn't Be Here Now..

if i'm not wrong, i shld be on a date with summer now.. but.. though i knoe my true reasons, i decided to lie to everyone, telling them i'm alrite and smiling as usual.. i regretted.. but too late..

i jus wanna tell everyone that if you guys ever realli have a tough decision to make, pls make sure that u consider carefully.. dun make bcos of a rash decision, thus regretting it later.. every decision that we make, carries a consequence that we do not knoe.. and till you regret and want things back, it's too late..

i realised i've been tearing nites after nites on my bed.. i think of myself as a foolish guy who wants the best for her, in the end, hurting her.. when i left her to cry alone that afternoon, i knoe i deserve to die..

i wrote out my truthful feelings abt some things in a secret blog, cos i can't find anyone to talk to.. guys can get realli lonely in camp.. so our thinkings go astray.. i knoe summer has totally given up on me, and wont come here again.. her voice was cold.. and i will neva forget her words..

"i dun feel for you now.."

"i'm sorry but i dun love you anymore.."

those words killed me just like how i killed her with mine.. i like blogging, cos i can live in a world of my own, where readers are mysterious and writers too.. a place where people can choose to continue reading, or just exit from the top right hand corner of their windows..

rite now, i got no one but my own world to live in.. a place which i chose and regretted..

but it's too late..

my own world from now..

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SummerLove winks
at |4:18 PM|

光良 - 约定

说好的三年不见面用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定

就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了

就这样三年又过了我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现空气中吻你的脸

我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了

你会记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了

你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了

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SummerLove winks
at |2:47 PM|