* I love Summer *

Sunday, March 26, 2006

1st Book-Out

hi guys.. i'm living fine, so dun worry abt me ya? get to knoe alot of new friends, learnt many new malay commands and of course, get in touch with weapons.. perhaps i can consider signing on after my national service.. hmm, not sure yet.. shall see in future.. but it's quite a relax job in exchange for your fitness and as wat everyone says - SAF pays you to get fit and get your desired 6 pacs.. hahaha.. i quite agree..

i was met with excited Ler family who wanna hear my interesting stories in camp.. they were surprised to knoe that i was adapting well into the environment and there are many restrictions in camp as well.. it was filled with laughters and jokes during dinner..

free time was realli treasured in camp as we were only given an hr a day.. but we spent half of it bathing and washing our clothes while the remaining time will be spent on making phone calls or chatting with bunk mates or even going to the recruit's rm to enjoy a game of pool and crapping..

since day 1 i entered tekong, i've been thinking what kind of a 1st book-out i'll be expecting.. will she miss me more?? will she be talking to me thru the whole of fri nite or sat..? but it wasn't.. i spent my fri and sat alone and even today as well.. my bunk mates told me this is a period of realli tense moments whereby nerves will be cut up to test the relationship..

here's an extract from her blog..

I believe trust is a very important thing in relationships. I'm not going to have someone make me report my movements 24/7 just bcoz he thinks I'm going to run off with someone else. I still want to maintain my friendships. If you are going to suspect my love for you then why are we even together?

but she doesn't trust me.. and i dun understand why as well.. just bcos i went to a randomly went to a friends blog and tagged in, she got into such fury.. and rather than cherishing the remaining time which is running us by as i'm typing now, she refused to talk to me.. i realli dunno why.. sighz.. so this is the 1st book-out welcome i'm receiving from her..

being in the army has trained me to be tough, the lectures and counselling sessions were there to help us adjust to army life while you cut ur ties temp with the world out there.. it's where at nite, u laid in bed thinking how idiotic u've been when u quarrelled with her and not talking to each other for days.. thinking if only u're given another half an hr more to talk to her every nite..

as the days go by, your expectations of your other half increased naturally.. but for me, i neva had any expectations of her.. many of her friends dun think much abt our relationship.. perhaps she doesn't thick-skinned-ly tells the whole world how gd her other half is like i do.. i'm no longer the little boy who gets angry for little bits and quarrel with her.. i learnt how to treasure wateva time i have with her, even if she doesn't think much of the time..

it seems i've grown up over a period of 2 wks.. my mum said i'm quieter, fitter and definitely darker.. it's true, the lonliness u feel in camp is definitely no better than being in jail.. everyday in camp, eating, marching, running, i just keep thinking of her.. even when i'm stoning, i'm also thinking of her.. i'll just think of her more when times are tough and her faith in me making thru is ever growing stronger.. and tat's how i managed to survive many physical trainings..

it's hard to ask someone to believe in you.. it's hard to ask someone to knoe that ur heart is 110% with her and no one else.. time will tell.. my commanding officer spoke to us abt it.. he said, time is a very crucial item in our lives.. how many ppl survive and how many ppl will fall, is dependent on time.. and if you dun trust your gfs, then why in the world you guys wanna get together but as well, your gf has to trust you that u wont go outside and hook on the first girl u see bcos she knoes u're rushing home to see her..

here's an extract from another friend's blog..

The importance of things can be measured by how much time we are willing to invest in them. The more time you give to something, the more you reveal its importance and value to you. If you want to know a person's priorities, just look at how they use their time.

Time is your most precious gift because you only have a set amount of it. You can make more money, but you can't make more time. When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.

It is not enough just to say relationships are important; we must prove it by investing time in them. Words alone are worthless. Our love should not be just words and talk; it must be true love, which shows itself in action. Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E.

we dun need to answer to anybody else in this world.. as long as i can live up to my conscience and summer that she's the only one in me and no one else.. we've walked a realli long and tough distance.. we're beginning to learn to appreciate each other even more.. rite now, i can see her jealousy which also means she cares.. and for that, i knoe i love her even more.. much much more..

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