Monday, January 23, 2006
Retributionin the end, everything still ended.. with hundreds of missed calls and countless of msgs, she still left me with just a few msgs..
"
She was a dream. Time to wake up kel.. Let her go" and i did...
i've neva put in more effort than anything else than her.. i gave her all the love i can ever find, i thot of her whenever i could.. i did what probably no guys will ever do for their love.. but still, she wanna go.. and i allowed her..
each time she wanted to initiate a breakup, she'll missed my calls the whole day.. i couldn't even find her, i couldn't even get hold of her.. in the end, she always relented.. but what was coming was, every breakup and her tears, was like a rehersal, made her a stronger person last nite..
she left me guessing what went wrong, was it bcos of my harsh tone that she couldn't take it anymore?? or bcos there was no love.. but i guess it's all retribution.. i have always given her and painted the kind of future she always wanted.. i always gave in to her requests.. not to meet, snapped away my lines, etc.. even when she went off last nite, i was the one who sent her off..
perhaps she's rite.. everything was just a dream.. there was never a summer, and there was definitely never a nice kel.. and i believe it's time to wake up too.. since she's able to throw me aside just like that, it just shows what kind of a boyfriend i am.. and what kind of love i'm showering on..
for those ppl who have never seen us gd, u got ur words.. u guys shld be happy now.. but what u guys wont expect is a change in me.. there will not be a kelvin as well anymore.. i'm leaving.. i've only 2 names in my phone now.. and for the rest, i wont be bothered anymore.. i dun care abt how u guys feel anymore.. cos this is kel.. he doesn't give a god-damn shit to you guys at all..
and as for her..
i told her i'm gone.. i wont bother her again.. i knoe she'll be happy.. bcos her life was so bright even before i enter.. i will definitely not forget the 12th of every mth.. if this is she had planned for me, i believe it's the best too.. maybe i'm stupid, maybe it's the end of me..
i love her.. then, now and on.. if this isn't what she wanted in a relationship, i guess she'll never be happy with me.. from now on, i'll only get to look at her from afar.. but that's enough.. cos as long as she's happy, safe and sound, whatever position i hold in her heart, it doesn't matter anymore..
this time i shed no tears.. perhaps no more tears to shed.. i always believe she planned my life for me.. she's the one.. and i shld trust her.. mayb i'll start trusting her..
i wish you all the best, honey..i'll not be back anymore..
翻着我们的照片
想念若隐若现
去年的冬天
我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸
对着我说再见
来不及听见
你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我
也许已经很难回头
我知道是自己错过
请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我
就算是我不懂
能不能原谅我
请不要把分手
当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走
是你受伤的藉口
请你回头
我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果
我也能够承受
我知道你的痛
是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容
如果要走
请你记得我
如果难过
请你忘了我
bye everyone..
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SummerLove winks
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