Tuesday, January 03, 2006
in the end, she still chose to leave..
i guess i left more than a hundred calls, i guess i left many other msgs.. but nothing can melt the heart which has hardened.. and i knoe you'll be reading this, my love.. i understand the amount of stress you had to undergo because of me.. and you realli need a break rite now..
but taking a break and a total break is 2 different topics.. you shld knoe that, it's impossible for me to like another girl.. so pls stop pushing me to them.. i remember telling you once that once i set my sight on a girl i love, it's not even possible for me to like another now, tmr or even 10yrs later..
what you think is trying to protect me from further harm is actually tearing us apart.. we already dun have much time together.. i remember you once asked me to let you go and see how much you miss me..
what you took away with you, was your blog, your thots and my heart.. but i'm glad you took it away, for even if it's still remains in the body, it'll just be a useless one.. yest nite, i went to every single house which was on the 6th floor.. i knocked on every door and i guess i've found yours but you refused to open the door for me..
there are many solutions to the problem, why do we wanna take the most hurting one?? din we promised to hold on and till we can't hold on one day, we'll still remain as good friends?? you promised neva to leave me again, you promised to stay by me.. you promised to marry me.. where have all our promises gone??
i knoe this period is not easy, but it isn't that difficult as well.. perhaps, what u need now is a good rest and a cooling period.. but pls pick up my calls and reply my msgs okie?? take me as just your normal friend.. tell me what's going on in your life..
pls go to the secret garden and tell me how u're doing.. i'll stay at the bus stop everyday after work, till u're willing to see me.. i got many things i wanna tell you.. fatty also misses you alot.. he asked me abt you when he saw me going home, with tears washing my face..
dun leave me, dear.. even if it takes me 5 waiting years, 10 or longer, my heart has already moulded into the shape of your face.. no one else will fit into the picture.. i knoe you think, with my character, i'll probably get another girlfriend in another few wks.. but... my heart is not able to like someone else..
i knoe you wanna go thru this period alone.. bcos you dun wan me to wait with you and feel tortured.. dun worry, i'll stand by you.. quietly.. as you always wanted me to be.. if it takes me everything to get you back, i'll pay everything i ever have..
i'll wait for you again this evening.. i love you, lao po..
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SummerLove winks
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