Friday, January 13, 2006
Friday the 13th..i knoe alot of ppl will be using this as a topic but i'm still gonna use it nevertheless.. i'm tired and sick of everything.. today is such a good day for me, i wish i'll just have it once and never again.. many things to talk abt.. but i'm lazy.. just some things to vent out.. nth gd happened the whole day.. the only consolation - today is friday.. 2 rest days next..
work.
work.
work.
promised not to touch politics but all so rite to be screwed in it.. even if you leave that person alone, doesn't mean he/she will leave you back alone.. my work just piles up more and more and you knowingly still pile more for me.. so much for the "efficient kelvin" tag but i dun give a damn..
work used to be so enjoyable, cheerful and light.. sometimes i could just feel time zooming like a mad driver.. but why now the long, stale, busy, tiring (noticed all the bad adj start coming up) hrs? i used to walk with a hop but now, i dragged my feet and today i dragged them till my new sneakers cut into the heel of my feet.. bled a little, but i dun care..
on the way to work, things went bad.. no mood for breakfast, did "something", then zoomed straight to work.. sometimes work realli takes ur mind off many things.. but only temporary.. cos when you stopped to take a break, ur mind starts wondering again.. colleagues saw my black face.. kept quiet.. so many ppl working in an area, however it was as if ghosts were working instead.. till...
someone broke the damn glass which made me jump.. that was all it needed to start a loud morning.. i blasted the person as if there was no tomorrow.. i took another 2 more glasses and smashed on the floor.. i had enough of everything.. i walked out of the room and went into the chemical room.. exposed 15 mins of fumes bcos of another guy who left his brains back in my office.. blasted him off again..
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a taste of my own medicine.. not a very nice one.. but i realised how it feels when i treated them this way.. today i had it and though i wasn't too happy about it, i kept mum.. enough said. period.
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Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play.
Now I need a place to hide away.
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Mm mm mm mm mm mm mm.only the 2 paragraphs are applicable to what i wanna say.. i'm troubled recently.. by alot of things.. alot.. i jus wanna take a break from everything.. in the past i was too insistent on things.. i was too stubborn.. rite now, perhaps working life has matured me alot.. it's not what i want to be, but what i was turned into..
i used to be carefree.. rite now, it's so tight in my chest that i have difficulty breathing.. my girl is rite.. she's not the only one reading.. alot of ppl are reading.. i can't write out what i truly feel.. i'm trapped.. i need to release myself..
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5 qns the ppl in the company have better stop asking.. i've been in the company for 10mths and these qns came coming.. you guys knoe my temper realli well, so stop asking..
(-) are you free on valentine's day? - no
(-) can we have dinner (date) - no
(-) where are you going on valentine's day?
(-) do you think it's possible between us? - no
(-) why?
if not for my girl reading, i think vulgarities would have filled this page.. so you got my girl to thank for sparing you..
i'm super low now..
is there anyone who will truly be here for me?
to tell me "it's been hard on you" rather than me telling them??
is there a friend out there?
listening to this song as i stared at the ceilings with my
lights on to see if there's any cracks there..
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SummerLove winks
at |8:11 PM|
